December 2010
54 posts
i got close enough to the river that i couldn’t hear the trucks but not close enough to stop the roaring of my mind these rocks don’t care if i live or die everyone i know will finally turn away i will confuse and disinterest all posterity lost wisdom is a quiet echo lost wisdom by the edge of the stream at dusk is a quiet echo on loud wind with one hand in the water running cold and...
I really love movies with a happy ending. No matter how many times hearts break and you find yourself lost or in a place where you don’t understand anymore, things always get better. They will for me, I hope. I really really hope. I’ve lost a lot of hope up until right now. But I’m back. FINALLY. It has really been something. I have been nearly lifeless for the past year. Maybe...
watching the end of the vikings game with sixx then sleeping.
good night.
Watching Elizabethtown and attempting to clear my head.
I miss being able to go for a drive when I am overwhelmed, but it isn’t the same here.
“Do you ever just think I’m fooling everybody?”
Happy fucking holidays.
I had to put my grandmother to bed today because she drank too much because my family is so dysfunctional. Watching her drink so much that she couldn’t stand because of how screwed up my extended family is breaks my heart. She just wanted everyone to be there. The woman lives alone and sees her family together twice a year, show some fucking respect.
I am just...
All the things you’ll love, All the things that may hurt you, All the things you shouldn’t do, And all the things you want to… They’re calling your name…travel safely.
12
hour shift today.
great.
this week is the weirdest week i have had in a while.
Plans
Plan A - Go to a music conservatory and sing my ass off FAIL
Plan B - UMFlint, history major, music major, history major, speech major FAIL
Plan C - WCC Literature FAIL
Plan D - CMU History FAIL
Plan E - Cleary Human Resource Management - HATE IT WHICH IS KIND OF THE SAME THING AS FAIL
Plan F - Stop trying to get a degree that will land me a “real job” and just do what I love.
...
Let’s just see how much shit I can handle in one weekend.
Come on, kids, it will be fun!
I am starting to think that things are never going to work out.
I have lost a lot of hope in love.
I am terrified to show people who I am because of everything that has happened.
It’s a good thing I am used to this whole being alone thing now.
Help, I have done it again I have been here many times before Hurt myself again today And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame Be my friend Hold me, wrap me up Unfold me I am small I’m needy Warm me up And breathe me Ouch I have lost myself again Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found, Yeah I think that I might break I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe
It’s a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain As if a good thing could ever make up for all the pain There’ll be no last chance to promise to never mess it up again Just a sweet pain of watching your back as you walk As i’m watching you walk away
Don't you dare
fuck with my heart.
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Goodnight moon
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I love my best friend more than anything in the whole world. If I did not have her, I am pretty sure I would be locked up somewhere. She is the only person in the world that I can trust, and she is the only person who will never break my heart. She deserves the whole world and I wish I could give it to her. Thank you, Katie, for always being the best listener anyone could ever ask for, and for...
Netflix.
Great Job.
One day at a time.